LIFE IN THE CHATROOMS OF WWW (and the way people behave)

I`VE SPENT SOME TIME NOW ON ONE OF THE INTERNETS MOST POPULAR CHAT SITE. iTS TAKEN TIME BUT OVER THE PERIOD OF USING THE CHAT SITE IVE ESTABLISHED A GOOD SET OF FRIENDS AND ALSO FEEL COMFORTABLE IN THE 40`S ROOM. THROUGHOUT MY TIME IN THE CHAT ROOM IVE ALWAYS BEEN TOTALLY OPEN ABOUT MY DIAGNOSIS OF BEING PARANOID SCHIZOPHRENIC AS MUCH AS I AM ABOUT MOST OTHER THINGS ABOUT MYSELF. UNLIKE A MAJORITY OF PEOPLE I FEEL NO NEED TO LIE TO PEOPLE IN ANY WAY, WHATS THE POINT?. JUST CREATES PROBLEMS FURTHER DOWN THE LINE. WHAT IVE NOTICED THOUGH IS THROUGH BEING SO OPEN ABOUT MY MENTAL HEALTH AND THE RELAXED ATTITUDE I TEND TO PORTRAY ON THE SUBJECT IT SEEMS TO HAVE UPSET ONE OR TWO PEOPLE. YOU SEE, IM THE KIND OF PERSON THAT EASILY FORGIVES AND FORGETS, AND AM APOLOGETIC IF I EVER FU CK UP. EVEN IF IT MEANS I HAVE TO DO IT IN FRONT OF A LOAD OF OTHER PEOPLE..I ALWAYS THINK THAT A LITTLE HUMILITY DOES NO HARM TO A PERSON ,BUT MORESO KEEPS ONE S FEET ON THE GROUND AND THINGS IN PERSPECTIVE. BUT MY OPENESS IN REGARD TO HEALTH AND OTHER ISSUES HAS LIKE I SAID MADE ONE OR TWO ENEMIES. ONE BEING THAT OF A YOUNGER FEMALE CHATTER IN HER 30`S WHO I REALLY SENSE IS INTIMIDATED BY ME IN SOME WAY. AND DOESNT QUITE KNOW HOW TO TAKE ME AS A PERSON. MY BEING OPEN AND ON ONE OCCASION I UPSET HER TO WHERE SHE FLEW OFF THE HANDLE COMPLETELY OVER A SMALL SIMPLE MISTAKE ON MY BEHALF AND TURNED IT INTO A MAJOR ORDEAL. I KNOW THAT HUMANS DONT ALL GET ALONG, PPL NATURALLY HAVE MOMENTS AND THOSE THEY CANT HELP BUT DISLIKE AND I THINK THIS IS ONE OF THEM ALSO..BUT WITH ME BEING MYSELF HER DISLIKE TOWARD ME HAS TURNED INTO HATRED ALMOST. AND THE OTHER DAY I WENT OUT OF MY WAY TO FULLY APOLOGISE ABOUT THE ISSUE WHERE ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE ON HER SIDE, AND I DID NOTHING BUT SAY SORRY AND NO HARM OR MALICE WAS MEANT ETC.. THE DAY I DID APOLOGISE AGAIN AND ASKING IF WE COULD START OVER..MADE HER REACT IN A PECULIAR WAY. SHE HAS NOW PUT ME ON PERMENANT IGNORE BECAUSE I WENT OUT OF MY WAY INFRONT OF EVERYONE TO YET AGAIN APOLOGISE AND HOPE WE CUD START AGAIN .. ALONG WITH HER KNOWING MY MENTAL ILLNESS AS WELL AS OTHER PARTS OF MY LIFE ..JUST LED HER TO BLOCK ME ON THE CHAT SITE? FIRSTLY I WAS PISSED OFF ABOUT IT BUT NOW DAYS HAVE PASSED I WONDER WHAT MAKES HER REACT LIKE THAT? FIRSTLY I FEEL EMPATHY FOR HER FOR THE FACT SHE HOLDS GRUDGES, AND KEEPS BITTERNESS INSIDE HER,WHICH TO ME JUST MAKE PEOPLE LOOK OLDER THAN THEY ARE AS BITTERNESS LEAVES ITS MARK UPON THE FACE OF THOSE WHO HOLD IT IN.. SECONDLY HER INABILITY TO BE ABLE TO ACCEPT AN OPEN AND PUBLIC APOLOGY.. AND THIRDLY THE ONLY WAY SHE FELT ABLE TO DEAL WITH THE WHOLE MATTER WAS TO BLOCK ME...BUT NOW SHES STARTED TO GO INTO THE ROOM NEARLY ALL THE TIME.. SHE CANT SEE ME BUT IF SOMEONE SAYS TO ME SHE WILL SEE MY NAME IN THE ROOM..ITS LIKE SHES TRYING TO BULLY ME OUT OF THE ROOM.. AND TRYING TO BE MISS POPULAR, WEN IN FACT SHE IS THE ONE AND ONLY ICE QUEEN I HAVE TO SAY BUT AS I LOOK AT IT ALL FROM AFAR..ITS SAD IN A WAY THAT A PERSON RATHER BEHAVE NEGATIVELY IN LIFE AND HOLD BAD FEELING LIVE OFF IT AND DISH IT OUT,, WHEN WE SHOULD BE GRATEFUL FOR WAT WE HAVE WHO WE HAVE AND HOW WE ARE AS PEOPLE OF SOCIETY. IF SOMEONE WISHES TO SPEND THEIR LIFE IN A VIRTUAL REALITY RATHER THAN LIVE LIFE IN THE REAL WORLD ITS ,,YES,,SAD SO TO KNOW THAT IVE DRAMATICALLY AFFECTED SOMEONE BY BEING OPEN HONEST DOWN TO EARTH ME ,,WITH NOTHING NASTY HORRIBLE OR MALICIOUS INVOLVED IS QUITE A SHOCK TO THE SYSTEM AND I WONDER OH DO I WONDER WHAT EXACTLY IS GOING THROUGH THAT PERSONS MIND.. GUESS ITS THEIR MIND SO MY JUST BEING NOSEY WANTING TO KNOW LIFE IN CHAT IS UNHEALTHY AFTER A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF TIME, SO I TEND TO KEEP MY VISITS IN SHORT BURSTS SO AS I DONT GET CONTAMINATED WITH THE VIRTUAL VIRUS QUE SERA SERA EH?